Its October. and in a month, it will be the end of school, for good. or worse, i don't know. Im not the same person I was more than three years ago, and I can only hope that it has been for the better. When I look back at my past entries, I feel like I don't recognize the person who wrote them, like im reading the thoughts of a stranger. Some are so frivolous that I cringe, and others so contemplative that I wonder what it was that put me in that frame of mind. People, really do change very much. and im not only talking about myself. People all around me have been changing as well, some subtle, some evident. No, we're no longer kids anymore. but you know, grown-ups are so damn hard to be, they have far too many burdens to carry. 

 

it's polling day today, it'll all be over tonight. haha what an exciting past week, with election videos, press coverage, fb notes, arguments and more. im not gonna go into a lengthy tirade of any party or anything, but i just dun get one thing.

why are some people going on and on about there being no need to thank the pap for everything they have done because they are alr paid high salaries? u mean lets say if u're in senior management of a corporate firm and drawing a very high salary (say 5 figures, which is highly possible), and u've led the firm to expand, develop over the years and today it is highly-affirmed in the industry. so the employees of the firm shouldnt thank you for doing so much for the firm? NO appreciation should be shown? lets face it, its illogical.

lol i really cannot understand how some people think, and i dun think i ever will.

heading out now, will be home tonight to watch the results! :) 

 

they say hard work's the key to everything, but i don't recall feeling like i've worked really hard for something in a very long time. im not being modest or anything, in fact, i wish i was. and now i don't remember what it means to really work as hard as i can for something i believe in, cos it's either i don't recognize the feeling anymore, or the truth is just i haven't done it in a long long time. 

i think i need to do something to my frame of mind, or i will have no one to blame but myself at the end of the road.  
 

i wish i would stop doing this haha.

 week 9. sometimes i look at the clock ticking so slowly and wonder why each week just disappears. and i don't know why i can't seem to find the energy to do everything that is required of me. sigh. my life is a bloody mess, even if nobody can see it on the outside. 

so its 2011 alr, how time flies. no resolutions again cos i'll forget them in about ten minutes lol but well maybe i shld resolve to study much harder, cherish everyone, and stop donating $$ to the cabbies. last year was probably a reasonably gd year cos i remember more happy things than unhappy ones. and this year got off to a pretty good start cos im still in a holiday mood after bkk haha :) i love holidays. 

but in spite of it all, i still feel like i have no direction. lets hope it'll come to me eventually, and in the meantime, albeit a little late, happy 2011!

i love u investment analysis, please give me an A.

there are so many things we gotta consider in life. there're things we don't want to give up, things we willingly give up, and things we cannot live without. there're things we give up despite not wanting to, things we don't give up cos we refuse to, and things we can/cannot live with.

and yet i think it comes down to whether it's all worth it, in the end.

i think i need to study harder, and stop thinking.   

 i am so furious i cannot even begin to describe that feeling. tuition sucks my blood dry, to the max. i feel like killing people right now.